I moved to California. Isla Vista, Sueno. Been living here for almost 7 months now…those sunshine filled months changed my life forever. Im not going to tell you about these months, it is a too long time to cover. But all those days have turned my life upside down. In many ways they have been good to me, changed my view of life and of people. It has been a constant search looking for who I really am. Im not going to read this post, because if I do I will just see myself as ridiculous and start laughing at this sad side of me. I have always been writing, that is just a part of myself. of course it was in Swedish then. So maybe this is not really making any sense what so ever. But Im never going to show this to anyone. No one. 

With plans for the future Im trying to find myself. I used to be so sure about everything! didnt think that much about everything. Now I cant do a thing without over analyzing it into diamonds. I have a best friend that I love. I want to be like her, I guess you can say that I look up to her. Or as my Sociology professor would say Im internalizing her personality into mine. Dont know why this constant search for peace. But I cant really stop, it is like this crazy, warm train is speeding through my life and I cant control it. I love the waves and walking on the beach. It just adds coolness to my day. Drinking a latte..watching the waves. 

Tonight we´re going to this concert. Or better said concerts. Im gonna dance till everything feels fine again.

Seahorse captain