Found myself walking alone on the streets of IV last night. Or last morning to be correct. After trying to get into my room with a passed out roommate refusing to wake up from his alcohol coma I decided to walk over to my friends house. The streets were empty and the  night air tickled my lungs. Random people were just like me trying to get home. Or home to a friend, girlfriend, boyfriend, one night stand? I dont know. I find it interesting to make up stories about these people, where they have been along the night, if they like me live in this weird town. It all ended with me climbing in through my friends window. I know that she keep her window open all time, therefore I forced myself to by climbing the tree enter her room. I fell down on the floor and brought all the window decorations with me. She wasn´t home. I slept alone..in her bed. I could hear her housemates that I dont really know, or want to know..getting ready in the morning. All dizzy from the night before I just wanted to tell them to shut up. Guess I didnt. 

I have been feeling lonely lately. Dont know why. It is as if i cant satisfy my soul. It is constantly thirsting for more. Never pleased is my everyday mood. I want to scream at my self sometimes. Been looking around on the internet today..pictures and paintings..music is the only thing that makes me okay for the moment. Fuck have to get back to my history book. 

Appalling Casualties.