tonight I got really disappointed at a friend. someone that I trusted 100%. This someone is a person that I would never turn my back upon and always be there for. Stand up for in every situation without hesitating, yet it was so simple for her to just push me hard away. it was as if all the air just stopped moving within my body and lungs. I don´t know how I feel about it..If Im sad or just really angry. or something in between or nothing at all. I dont know what to do about it either, should I just tell her how I feel about what she has done to our friendship. It is like she placed this huge black horse between us that wont move. I guess that all these emotions eventually will fade away and everything will just go back to normal. But I just want her to understand what he is doing to her. make her open up her eyes and see all the bullshit and how he is not capable of taking care of her. give her what she deserves. 

tomorrow is a new day and tomorrow is today. gonna go downtown to this coffe-shop that I love and write on my philosophy paper. I hope for a grey day